The struggle for creativity: My life as a Student Sportswriter

 Finding my creative voice

When I first got the position as a sportswriter, I didn't realize that I was the only one. Apparently, those before me didn't last long perhaps they weren't as passionate about it as I was. When I wrote my first article, I was both excited and nervous, unsure whether I would be a good writer. I had so many ideas and topics I wanted to explore until I discovered I could only write about on-campus sports and events. That's when I felt confined, like my creativity slowly disappeared. 

The editing process

Editing was another challenge, I often criticize myself for the grammar mistakes and errors I made. I diligently took notes of my mistakes and tried to improve. As the months went on, I became hungrier to write more. One story wasn't enough, I wanted to write two, was the process difficult? No, as long as I had a flexible schedule and focused on my topics, it was pretty easy for me. 

 

Sharing my work

When I first shared my article with my friends and family, many were excited for me, but some didn't care or just criticized me. I appreciated those who complimented my work and asked questions about the topics. But others just wanted to shove Grammarly in my face or ignored my work entirely.  There were times I felt like I was in a hole of depression, feeling I hadn't achieved anything significant because of the negativity around me. it can be mentally draining and make me question if I was doing enough. I know I've achieved many things, and while it might not look like it to some, it is to me and those who support me.

The Doubt that went away

In September, my advisor wanted to see me in her office. I thought it was another opportunity to interview someone for my next article, but it was a career learning opportunity. I was invited to a CMA conference in New Orleans. When I told my family and friends, they were excited and said I deserved it. But that little bug of doubt and fear crept in, and I wanted to back out. But after giving it some thought, I realized this kind of opportunity doesn't come often. For me, this could be my one shot, so I decided to go for it.

To anyone reading this, if you're an overthinker like myself, here's a tip: take that risk, take that opportunity, and surround yourself with people who want to see you succeed and become something amazing. Don't hide your gift, go high and let those who envy you talk. When they go low, you go high!